Adam headbanging

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NbaDd7VLKZY

3 weeks update

The thing that surprises me the most about motherhood is the love I feel for my baby. To anyone who is contemplating whether it’s too soon for them to have a baby, my advise is, just do it..it’s never too soon! Seronok tau ada baby ni…taktau nak describe..

Characteristics of baby Adam masa baru lahir;
-Banyak rambut, halus, and ada sideburn panjang mcm Daddy
-Kuku gelas mcm Daddy
-Skin kadang2 gelap/merah esp bila dia nak nangis and kadang2 putih bila dia calm
-Muka ada org ckp mcm Daddy, ada org ckp mcm Mummy
-Kecik je dia…2.7kg
-To me dia cute sgt!

Perkembangan baby Adam after 3 weeks;
-At around 1-2 weeks dia dah suka angkat kepala lama2, mcm kuat je leher..i wish I could put the video here
-Banyak menyusu every 2 hours approximately, dah tembam sikit
-Suka burp ngan Daddy. Actually bukan dia burp pun, dia syok tido kat Daddy’s chest
-Alhamdulillah tak meragam
-Pandai mengerengkan badan sendiri bila tido
-Tak suka mandi, time ni lah kalau nak dgr suara dia meraung
-Badan ikut temperature Mummy. Tak boleh sejuk2. That’s why dia tak suka mandi kot
-Masa breastfeeding suka tutup muka dgn tgn
-Suka kuarkan tgn dari bedung
-Byk expression muka. Senyum, masam, muncung, ketawa..even tgh tido pun.
-Tak heran pun kalau kite lambat tukar pampers dia. Tapi kalau lambat feed dia bila dia lapar…siapla…
-Lebih berjaga mlm daripada siang

As for myself, my recovery is going well, I think. The whole “toilet issue” I was worried about takla seteruk yg I sangkakan. My auntie who is a nurse told me the doctor did a good job with the stitches and I’m healing well. Sakit/sleep deprivation ada la but tgk muka Adam sejuk je rasa.. I hate berpantang though, it’s the only part of having a baby that I really hate. Makan sayur pun tak boleh..buah pun tak boleh..mana nak dpt energy. Mandi tak boleh cuci rambut, my hair stinks! I wish I’d gotten dry shampoo like Along. In the first week I used pilis, param, barut etc..My body stank of yucky herbs and my clothes had yellow stains all over. I sweat all the time sbb sentiasa kene pakai barut, stoking, selimut. I had to ikat my hair high and stick a paku in my hair. The paku tercocok kepala I a few times, nasib baik tak kene baby. I feel like I’m being punished for having a baby.Hmm..mcm2 la…with my hormones lagi yg cause me to cry uncontrollably..maybe tu yg dipanggil baby blues..

BUT, having Adam is definitely worth everything, no contest.

Selalunya Adam tido jer..

Kadang2 je bangun buka mata mcm ni..

Adam senyum tgh burp ngan Daddy

Adam and Mummy

The Birth Story

Today marks the one week birthday and the supposed due date of my son.

Thursday, 4 October 2007

I noticed some spotting before Zuhur and Asar prayer. I called Dr Fauziah’s clinic for consultation. She asked if I was fasting. I said yes, so she told me to come to the labour rooms after breaking fast to have a check up to make sure everything’s ok. After Maghrib I almost didn’t go to the hospital because I was already tired and wanted to go to sleep. But my husband and my sister both insisted I go and that I might deliver tonight. I takde perasaan mcm nak beranak pun lg. Anyway my husband convinced me to go, dia kata ala sekejap je check, then kite balik.

Baru masuk nak check

CTG Machine

We reached the hospital around 9 pm. I was monitored with the CTG machine and a nurse checked my dilation. She said I was 1.5 cm dialated and to my surprise, she also told me the CTG results showed that I was already having contractions. She called my doctor. She came back in and told me I was to be warded straight away. So I tanya nurse,

I kene stay for observation la ye?

Takla, nanti kita masuk ubat..then you terus stay sampai beranak la nanti..

Oh my God.

She got me into the blue robe and that’s when reality sank in. This is it. I thought I would have some sort of instinctive feeling that would tell me the time has come. But no, the moment came sneaking on me. I started to panic. Nasib baik dear Hubby was there to calm me down.

The nurse gave me an “injection” up the butt to clear my bowels. At 12am, she inserted the vagina tablets to increase the contraction intensity.

Friday, 5 October 2007

The contraction pains came at around 1 am. They feel like period cramps, but they get more and more painful. Masa ni the nurses asked me to sleep tapi dah susah because of the pain. My husband lagi kesian, he stayed by my side sepanjang mlm, duduk atas kerusi je. The whole night I was put on the CTG machine. Benci betul, that thing terlalu ketat on my tummy, tambah contraction lagi, dahla takleh pusing kiri kanan takleh bangun..kene baring telentang which really hurts my lower back and makes the baby push even more on my ribs.

Hubby sleeping on the chair

At around 8.30am, Dr Fauziah came in to check on me. I was only 3 cm dialated after inserting the tablets 8 hours ago. She punctured my water bag. Oh my God, it was SO PAINFUL! Felt like the process lasted forever. I heard her keep saying “Sorry Darling, Sorry Darling”. I saw her taking out a looong stick – mcm lidi, and cucuk kat dlm tu! After that, bushhh!!! Kluar air melambak..

After that the contraction pain intensified. She said maybe it’s ok to take epidural because my dilation was taking so long. If I were to take it, it had to be done when I’m 3-4 cm dialated. I was thinking, 1.5cm increase pun ambik masa 8 hours, when will we reach 10 cm full dilation? Since it looks like this was going to be a very long labour I decided to take epidural. Turned out, best decision I ever made. Around 10 am, the anesthetist Dr Ooi came in to put the big needle in. Process was painful, but was nothing compared to the contractions I was feeling every 2 minutes. After that, no more cramps! I was also put on a drip to increase my contractions.

My dilation progressed really slowly. My gynea had to leave in the afternoon for a meeting, sbb dah lmbt sgt I tak beranak2 jugak. Another gynea, Dr Ariza replaced her. At around 4.30 pm, Dr Ariza came to check on me. I was only 5 cm dialated. She told me, let’s give it some more time. In 2 hours, if the dilation doesn’t increase up to 7-8 cm, we will need to proceed to c-section. The baby’s heartbeat has been steady before but it has started to increase. What?? C-Section?? I wasn’t ready for this!! Everything else was going well; my contractions dah kuat sgt tapi doctor pun taktau nape I tak dilate lagi. She told me nasib baik I amik epidural otherwise mmg dah tak mampu punya nak endure the long labour. The next 2 hours was excruciating for me. I was so scared and exhausted. My husband kept encouraging me.

To kak Fifah, at this point I thought of your advice about being prepared for emergency c-sect. Unfortunately, I remained blissfully ignorant despite your wise advice, sbb mmg tanak sgt operate.

Around 6.45 pm, a nurse came to do the VE. My dilation was 6 cm. Not good enough. Nurse said, takpe, kita buka dulu, lps ni kita check lagi for the last time before doctor dtg. Sedih betul masa ni,nampaknya mcm takde harapan je. Mmg tawakkal ajelah…

Close to 8 pm, lps buka puasa, a nurse came in. she checked me and…tara!! I was fully dialated! I don’t know how I went from 6cm to 10cm in about 1 hour. Mmg kuasa Allah..Alhamdulillah…

Dr Ariza was immediately called. I was put in position for pushing. Masa ni I dah letih dan mengantuk sgt2, and my body was shaking uncontrollably. But I was so happy because it was finally time. So I pushed and pushed with encouragements from my husband, 2 nurses and Dr Ariza. In about 15 minutes, Adam came into the world. Screaming. They put him on my tummy and I saw him for the first time. Comelnye anak Mummy…

After almost 24 hours of labour, at 8.26pm 5 October 2007, I became the proud mother of baby Adam Mikhael.

Adam kene suck


Adam ukur berat

Welcome to the World, Adam!

Alhamdulillah..

Syukur pd Allah..semuanya dah selamat..

Baby Adam dah dilahirkan pada 5 October 2007, dgn berat 2.74 kg.

Our lives have changed in ways I could never have imagined.

Internet connection is poor unfortunately. Stay tuned for the birthstory, coming up as soon as I could find the time (and signal!).

38th week update

Last week during check up Dr Fauziah asked me to induce because she thought I might be diabetic. I was so nervous suddenly feeling like I’m not ready yet. Terus ajak my husband beli barang, made plans for a big dinner etc. Story about this dah diceritakan oleh my husband at the other blog.

Anyway, proper blood test revealed that I wasn’t diabetic afterall. Tiba2 after knowing that rase disappointed pulak…heh..tak dpt jumpa Adam…

We contemplated getting induced on Friday so that my brother can see Adam before going back to Germany on Sunday. But looking at my father’s condition plus my mother going to Umrah, susah sikitla kalau I bersalin. My husband will be the only one taking care of both my father and I. Sorang kat Damansara, sorang kat Ampang Puteri. Pengsan la Daddy…So we decided to let Adam decide when he wants to come out =)

Last Saturday I had a bloody show, I think. I’m still not sure what it was. Colour mcm pink2 sikit, very little. Tapi there’s no pain or cramps yet as of today. My tummy pun still “high”. Maksudnya Adam blom engage lagi. Bila Adam nak engage ni..

On Saturday my mom went for Umrah. On Sunday my brother balik Germany. Adam still tak bagi signal untuk keluar….jadi, kita tunggu sajelah…heheh..The best timing would be after this coming weekend because my brother Ali studying in Perak would be coming home for Raya holidays already, alhamdulillah. So he can look after my father while my husband take care of me (play with Adam!).

I’m now at my 38th week. Tomorrow I have a check up with Dr Fauziah again. Judging from the last check up, Dr Fauziah ni nampak mcm nak suruh I bersalin cepat jer..Maybe because she won’t be around during Raya, my due date. Tunggu la skejap ye doctor, weekend ni I beranak, mcmana..ok? I plan to ask for MC for the rest of this week because I dah tak larat nak pergi kerja plus someone needs to be at the hospital during daytime to look after my father. Harap2 Dr Fauziah berbaik hatila nak bagi I MC…

Barang2 for baby and for myself dah pun ready. So sekarang tinggal nak menghitung hari jelah…Bila agaknya Adam nak keluar ye….

Come out and play, Adam dear. Mummy’s waiting for you =)